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PseudoPod 999: Barghest

Show Notes

From the author: “The idea for Barghest came from reading legends surrounding the existence of mythical ‘black dogs.’ These were supernatural, ghostlike, or demonic hellhounds. When I discovered that the legend of one of these creatures, the Barghest, was specific to Northern English Folklore, including County Durham, where I live, I was hooked. The Barghest was believed to be a monstrous black dog with huge eyes, teeth and claws. Witnessing it would be a certain omen of death.

I wanted to bring the Barghest legend into a modern tale. Folklore was often, and at times still is, used as a warning to children – go to sleep or the bogeyman will get you, don’t go into the woods at night or the goblins will eat you. I wanted my modern-day Barghest to be an avenger, to punish children who misbehaved, especially bullies. And I wanted to make it personal to the mother and daughter in the story. I hope I’ve succeeded.”


Barghest

By Susan King


I’m reaching for the scissors when the lamp bulb flickers and dies. Cursing, I use the torch on my phone to push through the stacks of unpacked boxes.

I flick the light switch. 

Nothing happens.

I have no idea where the fuse box is. 

Next door’s dog is barking like crazy. Maybe it’s a power cut? 

I weave my way to the window and open the curtains. Lights blaze from every house in the street. Before I can search for the circuit box, the sound of sobbing comes from upstairs.

Willa is sitting up in bed, her wolfsbane-blue eyes red and puffy, her cheeks wet. She’s taking great gulps of air, her arms wrapped around her chest. A cold breeze blows through the open window. Shivering in my tee shirt and jeans, I pull it closed.

“It’s all right,” I say. “It’s just a blown fuse.” I lay my mobile on her bedside table and hold her, her body still heaving. “Did you have a nightmare?”

“I was in the woods at night. There’s this boy lying on the ground.” She takes a deep breath. Tears and snot mingle and run down her chin. I give her a tissue from the packet by her bed. She blows her nose. 

“That’s all over now. That’s why we moved, remember? You’re safe here.” 

“There was blood everywhere, all over my hands and my clothes. There was a sound behind me. It was horrible like a—”

Something hits the windowpane with a thud. A black shape falls out of view.

“What was that?” says Willa. 

“Just a bird, poor thing.” It was more likely a bat, but Willa doesn’t need to know that. An owl hoots in the distance. 

“I hate it here, Mum.”

 “You just need time to settle. You’ll make new friends, you’ll see.” I stroke her hair. “I’ll stay with you until morning. Now go to sleep.”

Her sobs subside, and she closes her eyes. Her breath slows and deepens. Moments later, the house lights come on.

Aberstowe Primary is only a fifteen-minute walk from our house. Willa stays silent all the way. She answers my attempts to chat with a shrug, or fine, or whatever, so I give up. The school is on the opposite side of town to Myrwell Woods, so at least she won’t be reminded of her nightmare. 

The bell is ringing when we reach the gates. “We can go to Collyers Park after school if you like? Maybe take a boat out on the lake?”

“Okay,” she says as if I’ve suggested a trip to the dentist. I kiss her goodbye and watch her follow the children heading indoors. She lingers at the entrance. A ghost of a memory invades me. I shiver despite the warm spring weather. She’d stood like this at her previous school, her eyes downcast as if she had to cross an invisible barrier. It was the day I discovered what was taking place inside. It can’t be happening again. Not in sleepy Aberstowe. 

Then Willa disappears through the door.

I’m about to set off home when I see something lying on the ground. It’s the little Angry Bird Willa clips to her backpack. When I bend to pick it up, I see a cockroach scuttling across the tarmac, through the gate and towards the school.

I’m approaching my house, deep in thought when I realise someone is calling my name. The woman standing in next-door’s garden is in her sixties, greying hair falling past her shoulders, her face as weatherbeaten as an old barn. The dirty white terrier behind her is growling, his hackles raised. “It’s Elodie, isn’t it?” she says. “Such an unusual name, I hope I’ve got it right.”

“Yes.”

“I’m Sybil. Are you settling in okay?”

“Yes, thank you,” I say, ready to move on.

“I’ve got a parcel for you. Amazon called while you were out.”

I expect her to fetch it. Instead, she says, “Look, I’ve just put the kettle on. Why don’t you come in for a coffee?”

“I’m sorry, I’ve got so much to do, I—”

“I’m sure you can spare a few minutes.”

I give in, open the gate and step into the overgrown garden. The terrier rushes at me, snarling and snapping at my ankles like a demon on speed. I drop Willa’s Angry Bird. The dog picks it up, tearing at it until it’s nothing but a scattering of shreds.

“What on earth’s the matter, Barny?” Sybil says grabbing him by the collar. “I’m so sorry.” She drags him towards the house. “I don’t know what’s got into him.”

It’s difficult to find a place to sit in the cluttered living room. In the end, I move a pile of newspapers from one of the chairs. A damp musty smell rises from the seat cushion. Sybil hands me a mug of instant coffee, the rim retaining a smear of red lipstick. Barny is locked in the kitchen, his growls are a background grumble to our conversation.

“I’ve got a confession to make,” Sybil says. “When I saw your name on the parcel, I googled you. I hope you don’t mind.”

I do, but she doesn’t give me time to answer before she goes on.“ I must say I was surprised to see how famous you are.”

“Oh, I wouldn’t say that.” I put my untouched coffee in the tiny space between the rows of empty milk bottles on the table.

“But your exhibitions have received very good reviews in The Telegraph. I’ve kept the clippings somewhere.” She looks around as if expecting them to suddenly appear. “They are a bit dark though, your paintings,” she continues. “Give me the shivers.” She dunks a chocolate digestive into her drink. “Would you like one?” She holds out the packet.

“I’m fine thanks.” I wonder how long before I can politely leave. My leg is itching as if something is biting me.

“I can’t believe what happened at your daughter’s school. Willow, isn’t it?”

“Willa.” 

“It all came up with your name. That poor boy going missing. And his body found on Hampstead Heath. In the woodland wasn’t it?”

I’ve had enough. The last thing Willa needs is to have her past gossiped about. Rude or not, I’m about to make my excuses when she leans forward, lizard-like in her green mottled dress. “Have you heard of the Barghest?” 

“The Barghest?”

“It’s all over social media. My granddaughter told me. She lives near Epping Forest and is terrified to go out after dark.”

“I’m sorry but—”

“There are thousands of posts. They say it lives in the woods. That it’s like a bear with a wolf’s head.” Her tongue slips through her lips and licks away the melted chocolate. “Blurred photos have been uploaded by those who swear they’ve seen it. They say it killed that boy on Hampstead Heath. Tore his throat out, if the rumours are to be believed.” There’s an excited glint in her winter grey eyes.

 “Look,” I say, standing up. “I must get home. If I could have my parcel?”

“Of course.” She walks into the dark hallway and hands me an Amazon package. She puts an arm on mine, her fingernails like talons biting into my bare skin. “Elodie, I didn’t mean to upset you. I wanted to reassure you that Willa is perfectly safe here. There’s no beast lurking in Myrwell Woods. Nothing dangerous ever happens in Aberstowe.”

My studio is at the back of the house where it gets light all day. I check the tubes of acrylic paint Amazon has sent me against the painting on my easel. Satisfied, I work on the woodland floor. As I lose myself amongst the trees, the smell of decaying leaves rises from the canvas like the odour of a freshly dug grave. Tree roots snake through the undergrowth like ossified serpents. Destroying Angels rise like phantoms from the underworld as their white caps push through the debris. I’ve almost captured the feeling of melancholy that woodland gives me. Almost, but not quite. I’ll need to make another visit to Myrwell Woods.

My alarm makes me jump. It’s time to collect Willa from school. As I draw the dust sheet over my painting, I notice something odd. Between two oaks is a fuzzy black shape. I can’t make out what it is. 

And I have no memory of painting it.

I stand apart from the other mothers at the school gate and mull over the image in my painting. Before we left London, I’d started sleepwalking. I’d come down in the morning to find a half-eaten sandwich or a cold cup of tea. Once I found a trail of blood spots on the floor. But, whatever I did in that trance-like state didn’t include messing with my work. 

I’d put it down to worry about Willa and what was going on at her school, and I’ve found no signs of night wandering since we moved to Aberstowe. But maybe it has started again. Only this time, I’m picking up a paintbrush. This is not good. I earn my living from my work. I have to control what I do.

The children begin to stream across the playground. I stop thinking about my painting and turn my thoughts to this Barghest legend. Should I talk to Willa about it? Perhaps this is what’s fuelling her nightmares?

The schoolyard is empty, and most of the parents have gone when Willa comes out reading a book. No one could say my daughter is pretty – her thick bifocals don’t help and neither does her stutter which kicks in when she’s with others. 

A girl follows her out, her skirt hiked up to just below her bottom. She’s wearing a yellow baseball cap, her long blonde plaits falling past her shoulders. Yellowcap calls out. W-W-W-Willa. W-W-W-What are you r-r-r-reading?”

So, I was right to worry – it is happening again. I want to step forward, take the stupid child by her shoulders and shake her. But I daren’t. Willa would never forgive me. I made the mistake of meeting the headmistress of her last school when I found out she was being bullied. Instead of solving the problem, it just got worse.

Yellowcap runs to my daughter’s side. She grabs Willa’s book, drops it into a puddle, and stamps on it. “S-S-S-Sorry,” she says. Even from here, I can see the tears well up in Willa’s eyes. 

“Poor W-W-W-Willa,” says the girl. “Are you c-c-c—crying? Do you want your m-m-m-mummy.”

I look at the woman standing nearby. She’s scrolling on her phone. I wait until Yellowcap walks out the gate, a smirk on her innocent-looking face, and stick my foot out. She falls hard and fast, yelling loud enough to wake those lying in Aberstowe Cemetery. Her mother looks up from her mobile and runs over. I take hold of Willa’s hand. “The mud is slippery by the gate,” I say to her. “You should warn your daughter.”

Willa doesn’t want to go to the park, so we come straight home. She stops at Sybil’s gate, the scraps of her Angry Bird lie shredded amongst the thistles. “Is that—“

“I’m sorry. Sybil’s dog destroyed it. I’ll get you another one.”

“I hate it here,” she says. She storms into our house and disappears into her bedroom. 

Nothing I say to Willa at dinner lightens her mood. As soon as she’s finished eating, she returns upstairs. I decide this is not the best time to tackle her about the bullying or the Barghest.

 So I go to my studio. But it’s impossible to concentrate on my work with Barny barking as if the devil has come for him. The April light is fading so I give up. I’ll take a walk in Myrwell Woods and see if I can find some inspiration.

I shout upstairs to tell Willa I’ll be back within the hour. She doesn’t answer, so I guess she’s got her headphones on. As I open the front door, I realise how quiet it is. Barny hasn’t made a sound.

The gloaming is my favourite time of day. The only sounds are the crunching of dead leaves underfoot and a woodpecker tap, tap, tapping against bark. Ivy cloaks tree trunks, crawling along branches like a shapeshifter, turning ancient oaks into scaled, green spectres. Fear of the Barghest or the lure of video games is letting me walk the path alone. My mind empties, and my shoulders loosen. My eyes absorb the dying light that creeps through the canopy. I’m wondering how I can create this in paint when I see something a few metres ahead of me. Something that shouldn’t be there.

I stop. My body urges me to turn around. The last of the sun sinks behind the trees, the air turning cold. The kind of cold that seeps into your bones. I walk on. Dead eyes stare out of the dirty red and white heap lying on the ground like some travesty of a child’s soft toy. 

A dog with its throat ripped out.

Barny.

Willa is reading Pullman’s Northern Lights in bed when I go to say goodnight. She’s read the trilogy twice already. Maybe she wishes she were strong and fearless like Lyra Belacqua. I wonder which book the girl in the yellow cap had thrown into the puddle. I will have to do something about her. I just don’t know what. Yet.

“Are you all right?” I ask. A strong wind has blown up, rattling the window frames. I draw the curtains and shut out the waning moon. 

She shrugs without raising her eyes.

“You know I saw what happened in the playground.”

“Mum, don’t.” She puts her book down.

“Don’t what?”

“Do anything. I can deal with it.” 

Amidst the gusts of wind comes a high-pitched scream. Then another.

“What’s that?” Willa says, her eyes wide.

“It’s just a fox. Nothing to be frightened of.”

“Are you sure?”

“One hundred per cent.” 

She doesn’t look convinced. “Can I leave the light on tonight?”

“Yes,” but don’t stay up too late.” I kiss her cheek. “We’ll talk some more tomorrow.”

“Just leave things alone, Mum,” she says, returning to the page.

Downstairs, I pour a glass of Pinot Noir. Drinking calms me. It got me through those last few months before we moved. Worry about Willa had grown to near panic when the boy in her class died on Hampstead Heath. 

The warmth of the alcohol spreads through me. My shoulders relax as the image of Barny fades. Maybe he’d got into a fight with another dog and the owner didn’t hang around to face the blame. 

Half an hour and half a bottle later, I lift the dust sheet on my painting. 

The dark form is no clearer – it looks like it might be an animal although not one I can recognise. But it’s grown, now half the height of the oak trunk it’s standing next to. There’s something new, though. Something that makes me drop my glass, my heart pounding, my legs weak beneath me. 

The red wine creeps across the white rug, creating a mirror image of the ravaged dog at the feet of the beast. I know it wasn’t there when I left for Myrwell Woods. I check my watch. It’s a lot later than I thought. Have I really been home for more than three hours? Did I fall asleep before saying goodnight to Willa? Maybe I have started sleepwalking again – this time with a paintbrush in my hand. Outside Sybil is calling for Barny. Sybil and her damned tale of the Barghest. It’s wormed its way into my head and into my painting.

I leave the stained rug and return to the living room. I open one of the packing boxes, pull out a bottle of whisky, fill a glass and swallow the amber liquid in one gulp. The wind is still yowling outside, but rain is now thrumming on the window, streaming down as if a devilish god is sobbing for past deeds.

I’m on my second glass when the lights go out. Damn, I never got round to finding the fuse box. With a feeling of déjà vu, I switch on my phone’s torch and make my way upstairs. I stumble on one of the steps. Maybe the whisky was a bad idea. Willa has only seen me drunk once, and it frightened her. I have to keep control of myself.

Willa’s door is closed, but a cold draft is seeping underneath it. I turn the handle and push, but it’s like someone is pushing back. 

“Willa. It’s Mum,” I shout. “Let me in.”  The pressure doesn’t ease. Shoving it hard, I manage to force it open. The scream that rises in my throat is swallowed by the raging gale. At once I’m fully sober. The bed is empty and the sash window open, curtains billowing and twisting like crazed creatures trying to escape their bindings. 

 The wardrobe. When she was little and frightened of storms, that’s where she’d hide, curled up with her eyes closed. I fling open the double doors and shine the torch on the floor. There’s nothing but shoes.

My head is a maelstrom of possibilities – none of them good. Lightening flashes, turning the sky from night to day and back to night. First I need to search the house. Second, and I pray it doesn’t come to this, call the police. 

I turn towards the door when a noise from behind spins me around. A shape is climbing through the window, huge and dark. I back away, blood pounding in my ears. My fingers reach for the door handle as the creature lands on the floor. I’m ready to run when I stop, disbelief flooding through me. The beast is staring at me with large wolfsbane-blue eyes. Eyes more familiar to me than my own.

I watch as it turns away and climbs into Willa’s bed.

I stand transfixed as it shrinks, its snout shortens, and its fur disappears. Moments later, my daughter is lying asleep, her hair wet, her book by her side.

The house lights flash on. My eyes travel to something on the carpet. As quietly as I can, I close the window and pick up the yellow blood-stained baseball cap. Willa moans and turns on her side, her arm outside the quilt. 

There’s something in her hand – a tuft of dirty white fur. I ease it from her and put it in my pocket.

I leave the room and close the bedroom door.

As I walk down the stairs, I begin to plan for tomorrow.

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PseudoPod 998: The Story-Stealer’s Night


The Story-Stealer’s Night

by Madhu Campbell


Story-teller, Story-screamer

Tell your tales into this night.

 

The words of the poem rush into Durga’s foggy mind with unbidden clarity. She waits quietly at her school gate on the edge of the beach as the fishing boats make their way to shore at sunset.

Three girls join Durga at the gate, all still in their brand-new school uniforms, but with blankets and flashlights instead of book bags. They are not as quiet as Durga; their audible whispers and nervous laughter push against the silence of their school and the beach. A few teachers watch, expressionless, from high-up windows, but none bother to stop the girls from venturing out after dark.

Durga has done this once before, but the memory flows through her mind like sand through a sieve. And yet she knows where to go, where to stop, which rock to skip over. She knows how to lead the rite of passage every new student, teacher and novitiate at St. Anne’s Convent School for Girls must go through—spend a night on the beach telling stories.

The girls reach a low area on the beach and lay out their blankets to sit as best as they can in their starchy uniforms. A gold ring glints in the moonlight on Durga’s left hand.

“Jewelry is not allowed in our school,” says Rani, in her most pretentious voice, tucking her short hair behind her ear to reveal her own piercing with a small, silver hoop in place.

“The only ‘jewelry’ we’re allowed is the rosary,” says Mary, clutching the plastic cross on her plastic rosary, missing the smirk on Rani’s face.

(Continue Reading…)

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PseudoPod 997: Flash on the Borderlands LXXV: Together is Our Favorite Place to Be


Our family doesn’t have to be perfect to be wonderful.


The Wind Beneath

By Alex Ebenstein


There’s a gale when dawn illuminates our world. The morning light arrives as though leached from my son’s eyes, his gaze cast skyward, forever in search of hope, his dreams. He’s gone.

There’s little else to mark the passage of time now, everything’s wind and survival…and heartbreak. When the world turned, we had no choice but to reckon with loss. To choke on it with every gust. We made it damn near ten years after, him and I, and that’s that. I don’t know what time I have left, but it feels like too much now.

It’s not all bad, this incessant wind that yanks at my clothes as I sit grieving. An old neighbor, distant a mile or so as we are nowadays, was an engineer. Before. A good one, apparently, able to retrofit leftover technology, made harnessing wind for energy a breeze. So we’ve got that at least, an efficient windmill and perpetual electricity. Well, I have that. The neighbor hanged himself years ago, and today my boy is dead.

The wind isn’t the problem. The problem is everything else. (Continue Reading…)

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PseudoPod 996: The Suitable Surroundings and The Resurrection of Chilton Hills

Show Notes

Ben Phillips’s music ? Painful Reminder


The Suitable Surroundings

By Ambrose Bierce


THE NIGHT

ONE midsummer night a farmer’s boy living about ten miles from the city of Cincinnati was following a bridle path through a dense and dark forest. He had lost himself while searching for some missing cows, and near midnight was a long way from home, in a part of the country with which he was unfamiliar. But he was a stout-hearted lad, and knowing his general direction from his home, he plunged into the forest without hesitation, guided by the stars. Coming into the bridle path, and observing that it ran in the right direction, he followed it.

The night was clear, but in the woods it was exceedingly dark. It was more by the sense of touch than by that of sight that the lad kept the path. He could not, indeed, very easily go astray; the undergrowth on both sides was so thick as to be almost impenetrable. He had gone into the forest a mile or more when he was surprised to see a feeble gleam of light shining through the foliage skirting the path on his left. The sight of it startled him and set his heart beating audibly.

“The old Breede house is somewhere about here,” he said to himself. “This must be the other end of the path which we reach it by from our side. Ugh! what should a light be doing there?” (Continue Reading…)

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PseudoPod 995: Data Ghost


Data Ghost

by Martha Wells


When the station stats popped up on the screen, the Interface said, Anomalous. Deni batted at their ear and muttered, “No, no, quit it.”

In the second cockpit seat, Winnie threw them a look. “What?” At Deni’s shrug, her brows stayed up, skeptical. “Use your words, Tulip.”

“It’s the Interface.” Deni thumped their head against the seat back, thinking about the urge to dig the thing out of their brain with a spoon. Sometimes that shut it up. They waved a hand at their head and made their voice low and deep and ominous. “‘Anomalous.’ It’s still mad because we filled out that intake form wrong at Ring Transit.”

The Interface hissed quietly, Anomalous.

“Uh, folks,” Nehian said, his voice crackling over the comm from tertiary control. “It’s not mad about the form. Look at the station.”

Flicking through the incoming scans with a frown, Winnie said, “This is weird. Where is everybody?”

Deni looked. Okay, that was . . . not right. Though they refused to say it was anomalous. The station was silent: no outgoing signals detected, no beacons, no transmissions. “It’s offline completely?” they asked. There were a lot of things that could do that, and none were good. Like a disease outbreak, or a massive malfunction, or an attack that had taken down the life support systems. (Continue Reading…)

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PseudoPod 994: The Bride


The Bride

by Shaenon K. Garrity


As you drive south, the heat rushes up to greet you like your name is in the guestbook and it has your room prepared. A wet, eager heat, scarlet and citrus, the heat of orange crayons melting under a windshield, a heat that already feels like a sunburn. She’s at the center, and you might as well know you’ll never reach her. But here you are, still driving.

You have to drive because the railroad was never finished, but here is the miraculous road. The Overseas Highway! Route 1 unrolling off the Florida panhandle and over the ocean, baffling the eye, a fairy-tale magic carpet poured from American concrete. Another marvel of the twentieth century! You can drive from island to sparkling island as easily as you drove to the grocer back home. Waves undulate under your tires and the heat presses in.

The highway is safe, safe as it is modern. It hasn’t suffered serious damage since the hurricane of ’35. She remembers the hurricane. It was in the third year of her marriage, or was it the fifth? She’s never sure whether to count from the year she became a corpse or the year the Doctor’s treatments finally injected her with life. It’s all in the past, anyway. Now the marriage is over and she prefers to take long walks, smell the flowers, focus on the present.

You can see her footprints in the concrete, here and there. And you can see places along the unfinished skeleton of the overseas railroad where the steel is warped and melted. You don’t see those things, you’re driving too quickly and mopping your brow with a handkerchief, but you could.

These are islands of modern pleasures. You’ve read all about them. Exotic fruits, imported coffee and cigars, beetle-bright automobiles. You can get a cocktail that glows like a neon sign and sleep in a stainless-steel motel. Or, if modernity isn’t your idea of a good time, you can sip rum on the porch of a clapboard house while feral chickens scratch in the yard. The Doctor always liked the modern side of the island. New things, young things. Science! He was, himself, the opposite of modern, with his high-collared suits and shy manners and Old World accent so thick Americans thought it couldn’t be real. He sounded like a character from a monster movie, maybe the mad scientist, maybe the hunchback. He believed in ghosts and destiny, but he also believed in radium.

His voice was the first sound she heard. She has memories from before that moment, but they belong, she’s always felt, to a different person. Before the Doctor, her body belonged to a girl who had dark hair and dark eyes, read pulp romances, married the first boy who asked and was not entirely surprised when he vanished and turned up months later in Miami with a new girl, had a sweet tooth for pastelitos and arroz con leche. After that girl died, newspapers reported that she’d been known as a local beauty, but no one had told her that while she was alive. Her only evidence of being beautiful was that old men were always finding excuses to touch her. To kiss her, if they thought she’d giggle and let them do it.

But that girl wasn’t her, and memories from that time weren’t her memories. She was a new person, but the Doctor treated her as the old person, the beauty who died young of a beautifying disease, simply because the body was the same. Roughly the same. The Doctor had jammed things into it, radium and coat hangers and injections of yellow fluid, and stuck the flesh together with wax. He’d replaced the dark eyes with green glass ones, maybe because the brown eyes had rotted away, maybe because he preferred green. She couldn’t see through them, but she had other senses. X-ray vision! She could see by her own glow. And her wax-and-cotton ears were useless, but she awoke to his voice.

You are with me, dear wife, he was saying. He was reading from a book of fairy tales. The king came down himself and opened the door, and there he found both strong and well, and rejoiced with them that now all sorrow was over.

Alive! She’s alive! Electricity and radium at work for YOU.

Do you want to know the rest? If you end it here, it’s not such a bad story. You could stay on this island where you’ve stopped for gas, dispensed by a white-suited attendant from pumps as smart as Zippo lighters. When you sit at that table under the hibiscus trees and drink sweetened coffee in the Cuban style, just the way you read about in a magazine (Life or Look, you can’t remember) before choosing the Florida Keys for your two weeks’ paid vacation, you could take in the view without thoughts of her seeping into your unconscious. You could look for iguanas, which are common on this island, are becoming pests, in fact. She’s walked the beach here many times to watch the iguanas. If you look you can see places where the sand has fused to glass.

More and more, lately, the iguanas avoid her. But she can still enjoy the hibiscus.

You don’t have to hear the rest. But the story will keep going. At some point it started telling itself, maybe because she couldn’t tell it. Now it never stops, like a long-playing record long forgotten. Turn, turn, turn, flip, turn, turn turn, each rotation digging the grooves a little deeper. You could turn back. These words haven’t even radiated into your conscious mind yet. But look, you’re back in the car, you’ve slammed the door on the island of hibiscus and iguanas, and when you get back on the road you continue south.

Along the way, some of your questions may be answered. Answer: no, the Doctor was not really a doctor. He was a nurse. Or decided to be a nurse. He decided he could operate radiation and X-ray equipment, and the hospital management believed his assurances that he could do these things and hired him. Maybe it was the accent.

That was how he met the dead girl, before she was dead. When the doctors failed to stop the advance of consumption, the Doctor talked her family into trying his own experimental methods. Electromagnetic baths. Radium infusions. Throat sprays with real gold flakes. The dead girl understood she was to feel grateful and flattered. Grateful because the Doctor was doing so much for her, flattered because he did it out of appreciation for her beauty.

The Doctor fell in love with the dead girl at first sight. He believed she had been promised to him in a dream. He told his bride this many times, deep in the night, in their honeymoon suite. She never said anything. Though sometimes he asked, playfully, Why so quiet, darling?, he didn’t seem to mind that she never talked, or even notice, much.

Answer: yes, they did all the things you suspect at night, and several things only the Doctor could imagine. On the first night, she tried to stop him. When she pushed him away, her right arm tore off at the elbow with a damp sound. Her left arm snapped below the shoulder and dangled sickly. It looked like it was bleeding, but it was just dye smearing on wax. It hurt, but not the way a human would hurt. After that she stopped struggling. Afterwards, he sewed and soldered the arms and patted the wax back into shape. He cooed and praised her. It was his perfect wedding night, just as he’d imagined it, and the parts that weren’t exactly as he imagined, he chose not to remember.

They spent their honeymoon in an airplane. At least, the Doctor said it was an airplane. He was building it from scrap metal down on the beach. It didn’t fly, but it was much an airplane as the Doctor was a doctor. In the warm darkness he pinned her down and told her, lovingly, his plan to get it working so they could fly to his island in the South Seas. Meanwhile, the airplane would serve as his laboratory and their honeymoon suite. A honeymoon that would last forever, the Doctor liked to say.

It didn’t last forever, but it did last a few years. Then the airplane got too hot inside for the Doctor to bear and the walls were slimy with algae, so he let her into the cabin he was building on the beach. It didn’t take long for her to miss the airplane. It was stuffy and monotonous, but at least she had time alone. She went back whenever she could get away from him. She sat in the rusted cabin of the airplane that went nowhere and listened to chickens scratch and bicker while she read books. She liked the Doctor’s book of Grimm’s fairy tales. She didn’t need light to read.

The airplane never flew, of course. And there was no island.

Which is not to say the Doctor never took her out. Not this doting newlywed! When he felt daring, he’d hang a silk veil over her face and they’d go out for an evening walk. In dim light, she didn’t attract too much attention. They’d walk along a beach or a boardwalk holding hands. Once they went to a restaurant, but the Doctor hurried her out when people started to mutter. It was the smell. A cotton dress and mounds of wax couldn’t cover it up.

Once, only once, they went to a movie. The Doctor liked the technology of cameras and projections but found most films uncouth. The ones in the old country had been romantic and mysterious, not like the crass product out of Hollywood. This one was special, though. A bone-chiller adapted from the towering classic of horror! Her bones, wired together, were impervious to chill, but she was eager to see it anyway.

The Doctor talked through the movie, as she should have guessed he’d do. Very accurate, he nodded at the grave-robbing scene. These movie-making men, they have done their research. Then later, No! No, this is all wrong! In the great novel, the creature is intelligent, he speaks with eloquence! He is not this dull thing that can only grunt! Agitated, the Doctor glared at his companion, who never even grunted. She watched him without turning her head. She didn’t need eyes to see him. Then she returned her attention to the movie, which was very good. She understood she was supposed to find the creature frightening, just as the dead girl had understood she was supposed to find those lip-licking old men flattering. The dead girl had tried to feel the ways she was expected to feel, but this new woman could only feel her own emotions.

You see, he is lonely, the Doctor was saying. The genius who made him, he has rejected and abandoned him. He wishes for love. He chuckled. You will say, but this is a horror story, a schauergeschichte. But in the great horror there is also great romance. From the dark of the theater, several voices hissed at him to pipe down. He pulled her closer. You will never be lonely, my dear.

Eventually, he locked the airplane and told her to stay in the cabin, and the honeymoon was truly over. He filled a closet with dresses for her and started work on what he said was an organ, for playing beautiful and scientifically beneficial music. Slowly, the house grew hotter.

Here is another island. Blinding white sands and a strong smell of fish. This island is so small you can turn in a circle and see it all. You could take your shoes off, walk on white sand, let the water kiss your feet. But it’s so hot. Your feet would burn. You’d like a cool drink. Why did you get that coffee instead of one of the rum-and-fruit drinks you saw in the magazine? Why do they drink coffee here at all? But it’s getting harder to resist the electromagnetic pull on your mind. So you get back in your sweltering car and keep driving south, deep down into the heat.

The story gets jumbled, the way radio transmissions do down here. Listen:

Whenever her skin peeled off, the Doctor replaced it with silk. Luxurious! He ran fascinated hands over her. She thought of the worms that ate her old skin and the worms that spun her new skin and imagined herself as part of some eternal metamorphic cycle. Devoured and spun, devoured and spun. The Doctor couldn’t always find silk in matching colors, or couldn’t afford it, or maybe, after a while, he stopped caring. By the time the last of her old skin sloughed away, she was a patchwork girl in tangerines and pinks.

The Doctor made a wig for her, a skimpy thing like a moth-eaten fur hat. He told her it was made from her own hair. He meant it was made from the hair of the dead girl. Sometimes she wore it, but she preferred a head scarf or a wide-brimmed hat. It was a common source of arguments, the Doctor forcing the sad little cap of hair on her head, her pulling it off.

Sometimes the Doctor hit her. It happened if she tried to leave or didn’t come when called or did something dangerous, something that frightened him. It was always for her own good. It didn’t hurt, at least not in the way it would hurt a human being, and he soon learned to do it in a way that wouldn’t cause any damage he would, later, have to repair. Afterwards, in the night, he was theatrically sorry.

The Doctor continued his experiments to preserve and perfect her. He cleaned mold and slime from her body and picked out the maggots. He shut her in his liquid plasma incubator, a device never clearly explained. She was made to sit for hours while he played his organ, which was as much a musical instrument as the airplane had been an airplane, to apply the cosmic laws of vibration to her physiognomy. He clamped wires to car batteries and slid them under her silk skin. He smuggled from the hospital precious syringes of radium. He cackled to see her glow with health.

These treatments did make her stronger. And then, slowly, stronger still.

On three occasions the Doctor became angry enough to remove her head and put it in a closet. This upset her more deeply than he could imagine, although it had little physical effect on her. She could see and hear and think and even walk around without her head attached. But it was humiliating.

The Doctor loved to give her ladylike things. He bought her silky clothes, even if they weren’t always real silk. He bought her costume jewelry and handkerchiefs. He presented her with flowers. Of course he gave her perfume. She always needed lots of perfume.

The Doctor wired his house with electric lights. She could turn them on and off without touching them. Sometimes she did it without meaning to. It was the electromagnetism in her veins, the Doctor said. Usually he found her trick delightful, but sometimes it frightened him and he snapped at her to use her hands like a proper wife.

One evening, when they were out walking, some teenagers threw bottles at her. They knocked off the ugly little wig. Then they hit her head. Her neck snapped and her head rolled back between her shoulder blades. Someone screamed. The gang dispersed into the darkness. The Doctor led her home, though she could see perfectly well, and wrenched her head back into position. As he covered the damage in beeswax and balsam, he vowed revenge. Maybe in another story he would have followed through, but by the morning he seemed to have forgotten the whole thing. That was when she started hating the wig.

During the hurricane of ’35, while the Doctor nailed boards over the windows, she slipped out the door and walked through the rain. The only sound was the howl of the wind, which she found soothing in its meaninglessness. Lightning struck her twice. Wax melted down her face like tears and one of her eyes fell out. It was the happiest night of her marriage.

She could see while her head was shut in a closet. She could see while her body was shut in the Doctor’s house. Eventually she could see all the way across the island. She read the names of boats and thought about how far they could go.

She was very warm. She was always getting warmer.

It’s getting warmer now.

If this were one of the fairy tales in the Doctor’s book, it would end in revenge. Are you following the story in the hope it’ll end that way? She might set fire to the Doctor’s house, or make him dance in red-hot shoes, or send him to sea in a boat pierced with holes. She might escape and kill everyone he loved, like the creature in the movie. But the only one he loved was her.

And this is a true story. So he got away with it.

One night, as she lay in bed, one of the Doctor’s hands cupping a lumpy wax breast, she simply got up and left. Her body, a hand-me-down to begin with, stayed behind. She rose as a crackling silhouette in X-rays and electricity and radioisotopes, loosely girl-shaped, and walked through the wall. She thought the Doctor would wake up and believe she was dead; maybe he would even try to revive the corpse a second time. But he didn’t. He went on cuddling and petting and murmuring to her, and doing all the other things you suspect, as if she’d never been anything but a wax doll.

You’re still driving. You passed through the previous island, with its enticing cabanas and men selling shrimp from the backs of wood-slatted trucks, as if you didn’t see it. So you’re not satisfied. You’ve been pulled in. You need to know what happened next.

If it makes you feel better, the police came eventually. The dead woman’s family, long bothered by signs of desecration around her grave, finally had her coffin dug up and proven empty, and later still managed to convince the authorities to look up that overly solicitous hospital technician with the movie-monster accent. But don’t feel too much better, because he wasn’t punished.

On the contrary, the press adored him. A love story beyond the grave! This kindly if daft old gentleman, pining for a woman frozen at the peak of her exotic beauty, employing all his talents toward preserving her for worship. Not Karloff as the Monster, this story, but Karloff as the Mummy, eternally devoted. Romantic! The Doctor became, for a few news cycles, a local hero. The empty body was put on display for the curious. Thousands trooped past it, marveling at the little corpse sealed in wax that a man had so loved.

And the law decided, discreetly, that no one had really been harmed, that the happiness of a well-liked white man in the medical profession was more important than the horror and loss of a family of immigrant nobodies, and it was better if no news got out of the less romantic details in the coroner’s report. So everyone lived happily ever after, for the usual calculation of “everyone.”

The Doctor went home to his wife. Yes, he had a wife all along. And she took him back.

You’re still driving. You’re very far south now. Almost as far as you can go down the astonishing oceantop road. Can’t you stop and cool off?

No? All right. The story can keep going. Keep any true story going long enough, and it ends in death. She won’t die, but everyone else will.

The Doctor didn’t stay with his wife long. Even in the Florida heat, he felt cold all the time. He shivered and wept over his lost island love. His storybook romance. His flame.

One night, drawn by electromagnetic forces beyond his understanding, he staggered up and down the streets in his pajamas. The air was heavy with citrus and plumeria and X-rays. And there she was, flaring into sight like a struck match. The bride.

He stumbled after her. His wife was relieved when she woke to find him gone, though for the rest of his life, whenever she received word of his continued existence, she sent money.

The Doctor searched from island to island. Sometimes he stayed in one place long enough to settle down, find an apartment, buy a few plates and a can opener. Then he’d see her flickering between the coconut trees. Or he’d hear her voice or feel that electromagnetic pull. The same pull you feel now. And he’d be off again, limping.

The pull is much stronger now than it was back then. It grows like the heat and the radiation. Do you feel the radiation yet? She keeps growing hotter, her attraction keeps increasing. It seems to violate the laws of physics, but it doesn’t. It’s just that someone keeps coming along to put energy into the system.

Almost to the end now.

The Doctor never reached her. None of you ever reach her. No one will ever touch her again. She exists as the eye of a singularity. Only the constant motion of the energies rotating around her keeps her from collapsing into herself, taking the islands and perhaps the rest of the Earth with her. But you ordinary human beings are safe, aside from some radiation damage, as long as you don’t pass her event horizon. Once you get too close, according to the principles of modern science, there’s no escape.

The Doctor lay dead on the floor of his last apartment for three weeks before his body was found. His wife paid for his burial. No one mourned him or loved him or tried to bring his corpse to life. He was lucky. The only unlucky thing was that he died within her event horizon. Long after his body has rotted away, some part of him will still be marching south, getting hotter and hotter, never reaching her as time halves itself into infinity. The last atom of him that exists will burn with longing.

Almost to the end now.

As for her, she is content. She has quiet and freedom and sea turtles drifting in glass-green water. Someday the energies around her will be too strong for animals to tolerate; already they edge away as she walks the beaches. When that happens, she will learn to be happy studying the plants, which don’t mind her except that sometimes her presence makes them grow a little crooked. She would like you to know she feels sorry for you, now that you’ve passed her event horizon. But she would also like you to remember that you chose to keep following the story she doesn’t tell, that she did not ask for your obsession or the Doctor’s or anyone’s. The dead girl bowed her head and giggled and accepted kisses, but she is not the dead girl. If you kissed her, your lips would melt like wax.

The miraculous road evaporates. Your gas tank runs dry. You get out and start walking. Over the long grass the sun is setting, turning the sky into a whirl of silks. It keeps setting for a long, long time.

Almost to the end.

There will never be an end, you know. You may collapse from heatstroke or radiation poisoning, your body may be found or it may not, but something of you will keep chasing her long after the sun has turned to iron. That will be educational for you, perhaps.

She really does feel sorry that you took an interest in this story, but only a little. It’s not a subject that concerns her much.

You’re still walking. The sun has been setting for hours, maybe days. Your heart aches. You feel like you’re almost there.

Almost.

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PseudoPod 993: Home, Laced in Web


Home, Laced in Web

By Cameron Schoettle


I follow behind Butcher. A lot of nights spent imagining what I’d say to him. But there’s not been much talk on the road. Pretty used to silence anyway. Don’t hate it. Leaves room for possibilities, for what could happen when the right moment comes. Already know he’s lied though. Could hear the pause in the words my friend when he spoke of the patient in question. Didn’t elaborate. I didn’t press. Sets me off a little, though try not to show it. Don’t want him thinking I still love him, seeing as I don’t.

The cart rattles as he tugs it along. Kind of him to take it, though there are few I would leave my equipment in the care of. A cleaver dangles from his belt. His seven-foot frame kindly shading my eyes from the smoke-red sun—his antlers standing another two feet above that. Considered not coming. Bet he never doubted he could get me. And here I am, in step. The trees around us getting taller. The fog thicker as we head north.

We’ll be in Deep Wells soon. What once was home. A place where people know my name whether I want them to or not. Where I’m alone and unwelcome. (Continue Reading…)

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PseudoPod 992: Chattering Spines

Show Notes

From the author: Oh Spines. I wrote this while at a writing conference called Superstars Writing Seminars back in February of 2022 after attending a session run by Kevin Ikenberry. I forget the details of the class (and my notes are AWOL), but I came out of it obsessing over the idea of finding the most emotional beat of a story and crafting the rest from that singular moment.

I think the elevator doors had just closed when the idea that became this story lodged itself in my brain. Two hours later, sobbing, I finished the story in my hotel room. This version has had only minor edits for clarity from that initial draft.

And I still cry every time I read it.


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Chattering Spines

By Mike Wyant Jr


My neighbors smile when they burn.

The flames melt the flesh from their bones, revealing the full six inches of sharp spines that brought them here. I swear they sigh in relief.

Hell, I would, not that I’ll say that out loud.

No screaming, though. Never that. Just the crackling silence of flames and the perpetual hiss-pop of melting fat and burst organs. That stopped being a surprise a long time ago.

Now, this is just my last shift at the burn pit for the day. (Continue Reading…)