PseudoPod 553: Fade to Gold

by Benjanun Sriduangkaew

They say the afterlife is a wheel and that is true, but I am between and so for me the way is a line. It unspools interminably into a horizon that shows the soft gold of dawn, always just a little out of reach.

Before the war this was only packed earth and grass and dirt to me; before the war I trod this path from home to capital thinking of the sweetness of rare fruits. Now that my back is to Ayutthaya the ground is sometimes baked salt where nothing grows and sometimes wet mud bubbling with the voices of the dead. Inside my arteries there is blood which throbs and pumps, and my belly growls at emptiness as might a bad-tempered dog. But it is difficult to be sure, after so much soldiering, that one is still alive. It is difficult to be certain this is not all a fever dream. 

About the Author

Benjanun Sriduangkaew

Benjanun Sriduangkaew writes love letters to the future and beautiful bugs. Her fiction has appeared in, Clarkesworld and Beneath Ceaseless Skies, among others. She blogs at and edits fiction for Harlot Media.

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About the Narrator

Jen Zink

Jen Zink is a stay at home parent and podcaster with a love of all things science fiction and fantasy. Jen is the Executive Producer and a co-host of The Skiffy and Fanty Show, an audio editor for Nightlight Podcast, and she blogs at The Homepunks. The Skiffy and Fanty Show is a weekly podcast and active blog featuring anything and everything related to the science fiction and fantasy genres, with commentary on controversial topics and news in literature, film, and interviews with authors, scientists, and filmmakers.

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